I Can’t do it. Just can’t.
A couple of years ago I saw a guy on the nude beach that I thought was really hot then a year or so later he turns up at a class I was doing and we got on really well having a good laugh and cheeky flirt. I don’t get to catch up with him as much as I would like but his boyfriend doesn’t trust him (he’s cheated before) and doesn’t like me despite having never met me.
My friend was emailing me the other day saying he wanted to catch up and finally hook up and do that thing his boyfriend won’t do but my friend loves. I would love to do that thing to my friend too and have wild sex with him, but I can’t.
I’ll happily play with guys in relationships if that extra curricular activity is ok’d and approved of by the other partner, but I just can’t go through with being the “other man”. Not only would it make me a complete hypocrite as I’ve railed long and loud about monogamy and fidelity, but I just can’t do it with a clear conscience. How can I feel right about being the person someone cheats with but still maintain the right to be devastated if I ever meet someone and they cheat? I can’t and yes, I would be devastated.
Now, I need to tell my friend that yes, I want to do horny, filthy things with and to him, but it’s just not going to happen.




