Tonight I’m pushing myself out of my current comfort zone and trying to get back to finding another zone comfortable again. I’m off to a guy’s house that I’ve fooled around with a couple of months ago for some group sex. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt sexy but I broke my drought over the weekend, even after the disastrous attempts on Saturday.

There are definitely five of us going to be there and I’m sure once I get there I’ll be very much into it. I’ve seen photos of the guys that I haven’t met and I know two of the guys who will be there.

I’m not sure why I go through such dramatic changes in sexual activity. A year ago I was still riding the slutty wave that I’d initially caught in Europe but that wave died pretty quickly, about the time I got made redundant and a guy I was very much into decided he wasn’t in the emotional place he needed to be to date me. That knocked my confidence for a while but it should have come back enough for some casual sex before now.

For whatever reason it hasn’t but my libido is in relatively high gear at the moment so I’m going to make the most of it. I’m really nervous about it but whereas in the past I may have chickened out, tonight I’m going.