Having the guy I was just starting to date call it off has hit me harder than I thought it would. For once in my life I’m really in a great place with my singledom and feeling fine about things but then he came along and shook me up a bit. I wasn’t looking for anything at all but even though things were only a few dates in there was such a chemistry between us and an ease in how we communicated that I made the mistake of allowing myself to picture things a bit further down the track.
To have that snatched away, no matter how legitimate the reasons has hurt me a bit and because I’ve got such a rubbish dating history it makes me feel like, even though he says otherwise, I wasn’t enough for him to take a chance on me.
It’s all irrational but then, all affairs of the heart are. Part of me wants to tell him he’s missing out on something great and part of me wants to run away and hide. We were so early into the situation but it really felt like we had a chance.