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To everyone heading to Burning Man, which starts today I think, have a fantastic, amazing and safe insane time and feel free to share your photos with us. It’s an experience I was hoping to have this year but that didn’t work out. Enjoy it for me.

ScenicBoys: Burning Man from scenicboys on Vimeo.

Hi peeps. Once again I’m heading out of town as soon as I finish this post. I’ve got a couple of nights in Kangaroo Valley with some friends which will be beautiful and relaxing then a night with my parents which is always great. So there won’t be any posts til I get back on Monday.

In the mean time, here’s a few videos of naked men to keep you entertained!

STRIP SEARCH5
Uploaded by doris2008. – Check out sexy vids. Caution – NSFW!

CFNM – Alexandra Shower
Uploaded by vines123. – Get intimate with more sexy videos.

Dirty Sanchez font du Paintball
Uploaded by Grand-Lulu. – Up-to-the minute news videos.

Grande Fratello Ungheria / Hungarian Big Brother – Segal
Uploaded by 231282a. – Family events, birthdays and parenting videos.

Wow, it seems you all do have some questions for me. Since I posted my formspring page there have been questions popping into my email all day. I’m answering them as best I can on Formspring but I will also try and post the questions and answers here on a weekly basis or so.

Have read your blog for a few years, and I’m often struck by how often you seem sad. There’s a sadness in your face, even when the photo is of you at a ‘happy’ time. How would you describe yourself on the happy/sad scale?
You aren’t the first person to say that and I see it sometimes in my photos too. On a day to day basis I’m pretty happy and when I’m with my family and good friends I am happy but I can’t seem to shake the feeling that there’s supposed to be someone along to share the ride.

What is the key to a good photo? What are the things to avoid?
Lighting is crucial. Get plenty of light but not too much. Avoid taking a photo of a subject just for the sake of it, try and find something interesting about it to capture.

So what do you look like? Have we seen that before on your blog and I missed it?
The photos of someone camping nude under an outdoor shower are me. I’m all through the blog including the shot in the elevator that was with the original formspring post.

Why did you wait until you were 25 for your first gay experience? (btw – I was 26 and probably wished it was earlier). Do you now wish it was earlier?
Because before that I didn’t realise I was gay. I’d repressed all those desires and attractions. I don’t think I was ready before that, so no, no real wishes that it was earlier.

What’s your view of Australia’s federal election results? It’s exciting political junkies in the English speaking world.
It’s annoying the hell out of me. I don’t follow politics much and get so frustrated that they spend so much money and time bitching at each other rather than running our country.

Have you ever been in love, if so how many times?
Sadly no. I’ve felt very strongly for people but not love. For a hopeless romantic like me it’s tough.

What is your favourite movie?
SO hard to limit it. Fight Club, Single Man, Shortbus, Moulin Rouge are all favourites.

When did you know you were gay and why didn’t you have sex earlier than 25. I love the way you write. And the way you look.
I had sex with girls when I was 23, but I don’t think I’ve ever had confidence in myself sexually or physically. I never think people find me attractive. I think looking back in hindsight I’d figured out I was gay at around 13, but managed to deny it to myself for years.

What’s your guilty food pleasure?
Too many to mention, but usually salty fries.

Why are friends so afraid to be naked in front of each other…it’s rather annoying considering 1) We are guys 2) We are gay 3) No one gives a shit.
I don’t know and I wish it wasn’t the case. Even amongst straight guys I don’t think it should be a problem, in fact that is less of an issue because they don’t have the awkwardness of sex getting involved.

In the Netherlands, children learn in school all about your country, the culture, the people… I wonder if you learned about Europe / the Netherlands as a child?
Unfortunately not really. We learned in very general terms about European geography, and bits and pieces about culture but more about the British history and how it came to create the Australian nation.
I wish we had learnt more about Europe.
How old were you when you had your first gay sex experience and what was it like?
I was 25. The first time was at the nude beach. It didn’t go past oral but I felt so guilty afterwards. I enjoyed it but felt like everyone in the street for days knew what I’d done.
The first time I went “all the way” with a guy was the first guy I dated and I loved it.

For every thousand people out there who never let anyone but their significant other see them nude, there is someone out there who is always getting their gear off in public. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I love getting nude but I’m rarely the first and rarely the only one.

Every year at events like Fremont Solstice Parade and World Naked Bike Ride there are people who do it religiously, any opportunity to get their junk out, painted or au naturel. This guy has been snapped a few times and I am almost certain I’ve seen him in some World Naked Bike Ride photos too. Good on him, he’s certainly got a body worth showing off!

I’ve now created a profile on Formspring, so there is an easy way for you all to ask me a question. My profile is here, so submit away.

With the whole world knowing I’m a bit of a Kylie nut I have often been asked what my favourite Kylie song is and that’s just too hard. It’s like asking a mother to pick a favourite child, well not quite but you get the idea. One of the front runners for my favourite Kylie VIDEO is definitely Confide In Me.

It’s very simple but very cool. The song is quite dark but the video is candy coloured pop but still captures the mood of the song really well. Love it.

This is a question for all the straight guy readers out there because I know the answer for all straight guys. I’m pretty sure nearly all gay men have tried to suck their own cock at some point, god knows I have but I’m neither hung, nor flexible enough to achieve it and for the sake of me turning up to work, that’s a good thing.

My curiosity lies with our straight brethren. Given that they aren’t partial to having cock in their mouths are they repulsed by the idea of sucking their own, or is it like wanking their cock, because it’s theirs it’s ok? I’m not expecting to be flooded with responses to this one, but I do know we get a few straight guys reading the pages of this blog so I’m hoping they answer.

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This weekend just passed I took off to the NSW Southern Highlands a couple of hours out of Sydney to River Island Retreat, a clothing optional retreat where along with a mate, we were the only people camping. Saturday afternoon was a bit brisk with wind blowing up the river but I still managed to go for a walk of a couple of km naked. Saturday night was freezing cold but Sunday was bright and sunny so more wandering and exploring nude was done in the sunshine after seeing a cute little platypus swimming up the river after a night’s foraging for food.

On Sunday I jumped under the camp shower that my friend has (he has everything ever invented for camping) and freshened up and my friend took the shots above of me doing so. Now I’ve tried to explain that I’m as out of shape as I’ve ever been and I’ve realised what it is. No I’m not obese or fat but I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been and not for the right reasons. Over the last few months I’ve eaten badly and not trained anywhere near enough and the reason I feel so horrid is that I’ve realised that I don’t feel as in tune with my body as I usually do.

I’ve always been a sporty and active person, swimming every day as a kid, gymnastics, tennis, surfing and rowing. Everyone told me when I hit 30 I was going to get fat with the amount of food I eat and how undisciplined I am with what I eat. Stupidly I kinda figured when the deadline for my metabolism abandoning me passed without trouble I might have gotten away with it. Sadly that now doesn’t seem to be the case. Approaching my 37th birthday (October 7th) it looks like I finally need to start paying more attention to my wellbeing. Hence my current fitness challenge and having chicken and veggies for dinner tonight.

Kirill of Active Naturists blog, and his boyfriend seem to enjoy nude holidays a lot and have a bunch of videos of them relaxing naked everywhere. This video of them swimming in crystal clear waters in Greece has made me pine for summer even more. Winter in Sydney seems to be dragging along way too much this year.

swimming naked near Athens
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This interview has been a long time coming, being a topic that they gay world, and the world in general, is very slowly getting exposed to but still very ingnorant of. When the opportunity arose to do an interview with a female to male transexual it was not going to be passed up.

As an introduction (try and keep up here) Brosh Matthews was born a girl, and was a lesbian, is now living as a man, a gay man, but in a relationship with a woman. Got that? Right, here’s the interview. You’ll find it fascinating and informative and Brosh’s candid answers are very much appreciated.

How old are you? 27

How old were you when you realised that something was different?
I never sat very comfortably in my female body, and used to resist pretty strongly all the female-gendered things (like clothing) that were imposed on me as a kid. However it wasn’t really until I was 22 that I actually put all the pieces together and realised that what I was feeling was because I was trans and there was something I could do about that. The big ‘light bulb’ moment came for me when I had to have emergency surgery because of a problem with an ovary, and afterwards, I found myself telling everyone that it had been my appendix. I was like – why am I telling everyone it’s my appendix? And then it suddenly dawned on me that it was because I was kind of in denial that I actually had ovaries, and then suddenly a whole lot of stuff made sense.

Is there any way you can describe the feeling to us of being a boy in a girl’s body?
Not easily! I suppose if you and your readers stop to think about it – you all just ‘know’ what sex (male or female or something else) you are. It’s instinctive. So in my case, I just knew I was male in the same way. But then what happened for me, of course, is that they way I understood myself to be,  the person I saw myself to be, did not match up with the way everyone else saw and treated me (ie they treated me as a woman, because that’s how I looked). I guess – imagine if you were regular height, but everyone treated you like you were a dwarf, or if you were fully mobile, but everyone treated you like you were in a wheelchair – it’s just weird, it doesn’t match up with how you see yourself in the world. But then of course there’s that extra layer, that when you actually look at your body, that doesn’t match up with what you expect to see either. So there bits there that just feel like they shouldn’t be, and there’s other bits that feel like they’re missing. So you do what you can to to make your body match with how you feel – and the result it that everyone else begins to see and treat you the same way you see yourself and so that weird ‘mis-match’ gets better and (by and large) goes away. (Told you that wasn’t easy to answer!)

How old were you when you started living as a man?
I started transitioning to being male when I was 22. I was already dressing pretty androgynously, and then as the tesosterone started causing physical changes I changed my name, dressed more masculinely and started behaving in social settings as a man (stuff like which toilets I went into!) to match the changes.

You don’t have a penis do you?
Not in the conventional sense. Taking testosterone causes what was the clit to grow quite a lot, and I think of that  now very much as being my cock. What I’ve got actually looks like quite like a regular penis, but it’s teeny-tiny.

Is that a personal choice or has medical science not yet perfected the art of building one?
Basically, there are two types of surgeries available to construct a penis – a metoidoplasty (or meta) and a phalloplasty (or phallo).  You can’t get either of them in Australia, you have to go overseas.The meta surgery costs around $15k. It involves removing the girl bits, adding balls, and tries to accentuate the growth. Some surgeons will also extend the urethra so that you can pee standing up. It still means that you have a tiny cock that you can’t really use, but it gets rid of the female parts and keeps sensation in the cock. The phallo costs more like $100k and involves 3 or 4 seperate, really major surgeries (provided there’s no complications). A phallo removes the girl bits, creates balls, a ndfull sized cock (usually by taking a big graft of flesh from the forearm, belly or thigh)  which, depending on the surgeon, you  might be able to pee out of. The penis can’t get erect and in many cases there can be limited to no feeling in the penis. It also, in my opinion, doesn’t look very realistic. Some guys get one of these surgeries done because they are just too uncomfortable with having non-standard equipment. For me, I like sex, and so I’m not willing to risk equipment that works just fine and enables me to come, for equipment that might not work and the risk that I might not be able to come again or as easily in the future.

If it were possible and a more successful procedure, would you have it done?
Definitely. If surgery could deliver me a cock that looked realistic and had guaranteed sexual sensation in it, then I’d be lining up to get it done, never mind the cost or the pain. I hope medical science works it out in my lifetime, but if they don’t, then I’ll just live with what I’ve got. It’s taken a while but I’ve learnt to be comfortable with my body as it is, and have found that most people aren’t too worried about my equipment either.

How do your family cope with their little girl becoming a man?
They don’t really. My family are very strict Christians, so with the exception of my sister, who is a lesbian, none of my family have anything to do with me. Most families kind of go through a sort of grief – they feel like they’re losing their child/sibling/etc, but in many cases they work through that and see that the person they love hasn’t ‘gone’ anywhere and is in fact happier now. In my particular situation it’s complicated because of my family’s strict religious beliefs.

Is it safe to assume you have lost friends because of your choice to follow your true gender identity
Nope. I haven’t lost a single friend over it. All of my mates have been nothing but supportive – it doesn’t matter if they’ve been gay, lesbian or straight. Some of them have had plenty of questions, but they like me the person, and then can see that I am much happier and more confident as a person in my ‘new’ body.

You are now living as a gay man, does that mean you have always been attracted to men?
Nope. It’s a funny thing – before transitioning I was a lesbian. I’d never had sex with a man, only women. After being on testosterone for about a year, I suddenly discovered I was sexually attracted to men. It was a bit daunting have sex with a guy for the first time at the ripe old age of 23. I don’t know why the change happened – it might have been the effect of testosterone on my brain, maybe i’m kind of hired to be ‘same-sex attracted’, so that as my sex changed, so did my attaction, I have no idea. But I just went with it, I’m pretty open minded. It’s something that happens to quite a few trans guys actually, they go from being lesbian women to gay men. Personally, I call myself queer – I am mostly attracted to men, but still hook up with women too.

What is the percentage of people living with gender confusion?
There’s probably quite a lot of people who feel a bit confused about the gender. But if you mean how many trans people are there in the world, the answer is that there’s lots. There’s been a bit of research into this area and estimates vary from 1 in every 30, 000 to 1 in every 2,500 people.

Buck Angel has been a fairly visible face of female to male gender reassignment, as has Chaz Bono (formerly Chastity). Do you believe they are good role models or publicity for the community?
Yep, I do. When I look at the gay rights movement, it started with visibility. With more people coming out as gay and lesbian and being willing to talk about stuff. As visibility went up, people’s ignorance (generally) went down and over time we’ve seen greater equality for gay and lesbian people. Trans people still face a massive amount of ignorance and discrimination, and mostly I think that’s because there hasn’t been much visibility around trans people. It’s one of the key reasons that I’ve chosen to be out about being trans, and it’s a reason that I think the visibility that comes from both Chaz and Buck is a good thing. I’m particularly grateful that Buck has shown both trans guys and the wider world that it’s perfectly okay to be a man with non-standard equipment – and enjoy using it. Buck is also pretty good at getting health messages out to transguys and educating gay men about sex with transguys, and I think that’s pretty helpful.

Chaz Bono has now completed his transition and the media spoke of surgery. Can you please describe to us the steps needed to go from being female to male if constructing a penis is not routinely part of the transition?
Almost all transguys will, at the very minimum take testosterone. It’s usually a jab in the arse once a fortnight or so, and the magical little hormone does a lot of stuff – changes your body and head shape, makes your voice drop, changes the way you smell and the texture of your skin, makes you get hairy and/or bald depending on your genetics, speeds up your metabolism, makes you more horny – does most of those things that makes men, men. Most transguys will also have chest surgery – get rid of any chest development that has happened and reconstruct the chest to a masculine shape. A few guys will also have surgery to get rid of their uterus and ovaries – for a lot of other guys though this is no big deal because testosterone stops them from working.

As a man, living with a vagina, do you wonder/fantasize about what it’s like to penetrate someone instead of be penetrated?
Absolutely. Sometimes I have sex using a strap-on cock, and fucking someone like that feels really ‘right’, whilst at the same time being kind of frustrating because it’s not ‘me.’ My tiny cock is big enough for me to get sucked off, too, and so again, that feels really right and makes me think about what it’d be like to have a full sized cock to use. This is probably a good time to point out that just because a transguy doesn’t have a cock, doesn’t mean that he’s going to be a bottom. There are plenty of guys  (straight or gay) around that are tops, that don’t like being penetrated, and in some cases, who won’t use their equipment at all because it feels too weird for them as men.

How do you personally deal with seeing someone new and explaining your situation to them?
I’m assuming there would be a fair percentage of guys that are not comfortable with it. Disclosure is always a tricky thing, I’ve had some interesting discussions with poz guys who have to deal with a similar problem. When do you disclose to someone? How do you do it? In some ways I really like stuff like Grindr and online hook up sites, because I can put it straight up there on my profile and if guys don’t like it then they can just ignore me. It’s actually trickier in person, because I don’t really want to start straight out with ‘hi, my name is and i’m trans’.. but working out the timing is difficult. Certainly it’s a conversation that needs to be had pre getting naked, but then do you do it before any snogging happens? Only when you’re about to go home/into a toilet cubicle? When? I don’t have a stock answer, I play it on a case by case basis. On my online profiles I say that I’m a transguy and tell people to check out Buck Angel if they don’t know what that means – that’s easy. In person, I usually say something like ‘hey, so you should probably know that I’m a transguy.. if we start fooling around you’re going to find that i’ve got some non-standard equipment and I just wanted to let you know.’ I’ve actually never had a negative reaction in my life. Sure, some guys have said, no thanks, not for me, but they’ve always been pretty polite about it. I don’t take offence – everyone has their own tastes – height, weight, hair, whatever, so I’m relaxed if what I’ve got is not for everyone. There will always be someone else who is into it or at least willing to give it a try. And some guys are really, really into it (lucky for me).

Do you have any other messages you’d like to pass on or misconceptions you’d like to clear up?
The only one that immediately jumps into my head is don’t assume a transguy is a bottom just because he doesn’t have a penis!  Actually just don’t assume anything about a transguy (or girl) – ask. We’re all different.

This post may annoy a few people given that I am pursuing photography and would love to have my work in magazines like DNA but I’m going out on a limb here and saying that there is a lot of work out there that’s not quite cutting it for me.

Open nearly any gay magazine and you will see perfect torsos, sculpted abs and buns bouncier than a child’s jumping castle but rarely do you see a facial expression. Everywhere you look are guys that look incredible in underwear and swimwear with bumps in all the right places but please, can we manage more than a blank stare? I understand that sometimes the blank look is part of the overall style of the shoot. I also realise that sometimes the models are flexing their abs, pecs, triceps and biceps and buns at once and something’s gotta give while they aren’t allowed to breathe. I also understand that for some models (pandering to stereotypes wildly here) that some of them just remembering to breathe is a challenge.

For me, and it’s just my preference, in a swimwear and underwear shoot where the models are around a pool or on a beach, surely it’s not too out of context to do something with their face, like smile?

On the site I have been using to network with models and photographers, model mayhem, one of the things that models can specify on their profile is whether or not they do nudes. Most profiles say no. I was seeing this and getting confused because they had nudes in their portfolios but I then worked out that there is a distinction between implied nudes and nudes. Implied means that you can be technically nude but not showing your junk and full frontal is the “nudes” that people are saying yes or no to. Or so I thought.

Every now and then you’ll come across a photo of someone and it may not be on their profile but on a photographer’s profile, but sometimes it’s on their own profile, and their they are in all their glory, their tackle waving at you but their profile says no to nudes. So does no really mean no?

I love this kind of time lapse video. When life is passing you by and you get stuck in the detail of the day you miss the bigger picture. One thing with this video that amazes me is who has the spare camera to leave in the one spot for 12 months without moving it?

One year in 40 seconds from Eirik Solheim on Vimeo.

This is a very clever spoof of the “Old Spice” ads but using the idea to challenge our leaders about their stance on gay marriage. Leaders of both major political parties here are against gay marriage which frustrates me.

Born from a need to hang something above his own sofa, Dean Stockings started shooting people naked on their own sofas. He’s got all shapes and sizes, sexualities and genders in the book, all with handwritten bits of information about themselves.

Dean is a professional photographer in the U.K. and has done work for lots of glossy gay publications, fashion publications and all sorts of work. Now he’s hoping Sofa So Naked will win the book of the month on Blur, so go and have a look at the preview of the book and cast your vote!