Thanks for all the lovely messages yesterday. My post probably made me sound a lot worse than it was, although I did feel pretty crappy. Yesterday afternoon I went and hung out with some good friends for a bit, did some cooking, chilled out and now this morning after a great night’s sleep and a hot shower I feel much more civilised.
All the things I’ve been stressing about are still there, but more in perspective today. I start week two of my six week contract today and I think it’s going to be a busy one.
Who couldn’t feel better after looking at this guy’s spectacular butt. If only it was warm enough here to get out and enjoy the outdoors nude like he is! Click the image and you’ll get to see it bigger.
I’m glad that you are feeling better. I guess that these down times make you appreciate the good times. After all, if we were the same all the time we would be boring. I too had a period like that over the past 2 months since a knock / demotion at work. It really hurt heaps and shattered my self esteem. However, I’ve come to realise that is was not about me, it was the other people at work. They operate from a different set of values to me. I’m glad that I don’t have their warped values. I was doing a good joh. Even though I’m now doing a job that I did 15 years ago, the money is good (better than recent one) so that’s a nice plus. Moral of story, things happen for a reason. Sometimes we can’t see the reason but it’s part of the big life script that we are working with. Enjoy what you have.
We all love you Brenton. I agree with Markymark that if we were all the same life would be boring and life is about the journey not the destination (which is death). So enjoy the journey and learn to enjoy the ups and downs. Most happy people lead happy lives so be happy and when you least expect it love will come knocking.
You had me really concerned. If you find that you are down like that very often, you might want to consider getting some help. We all have our demons and there is nothing wrong with getting help every now and then. I have done it from time to time when my life had troubled waters. Boy and there have been some. I am glad to hear that you feel better now Brenton. I only wish you well and I am glad you had friends that you could go to for support. :) Take care of my pretty little Brenton!
Brenton,
I’m sorry that you’re feeling down, but glad to hear that you’re felling better. I’ve been where you are now, and I want to let you now that things will get better. However, it’s up to you to alter your destiny. I’ve always told myself that action is the antidote to angst. On year ago I was forty years old, successful in terms of my career, but without a partner and feeling in quite a rut. But I didn’t wallow in self pity. Instead I took action. I picked up and moved to a new city one thousand miles from where I was living. it was hard to leave mt friends and family, but I knew it was time to re-boot my life. I needed a do-over. That was six weeks ago and I haven’t regretted my decision for one moment. I’ve met so many great guys, and been on more dates than the past five years. The best part is one week ago I met the man of my dreams. Ironically, we went to the same college and grew up just 20 miles apart - but we never knew each other until now. It’s funny, but I’m pretty much someone like you - I work out alot and normally desire guys with similar muscular physiques. However, he’s anything but that. However, he makes me laugh, and laughs at my jokes, and is someone I look forward to waking up to as much as I look forward to sleeping with. We can talk for hours, and when he touches me I still shiver. I truly believe had I met him just a few months ago I wouldn’t have pursued a relationship. But now something has changed. He actually made a similar move here a few years ago for the same reason.
Action really is the antidote to angst.
I wish you only happiness.
Kevin