Today is one of those days for me where I just feel like curling up in a ball and crying in a corner somewhere for no real good reason. It started yesterday to be honest at pole dancing class. I keep meeting all these gorgeous guys that are unavailable and/or uninterested, then at the same time I was doing some photography that didn’t go that well and even though it wasn’t really my fault I’m beating myself up about it. Last night’s encounter with my lust object didn’t help and today I feel like I’m best viewed in low light or from a distance just so your eyes don’t bleed. It’s all tragic and pathetic and I’ll snap out of it soon enough but it’s what’s going through my head today.
Don’t cry cutie! the sun will be brighter tomorrow *hugs*
it’s strange and interesting at the same time, that beautiful people such as yourself Brenton, would go thru the same emotional rollercoaster as us normal ‘average-looking’ folks… For someone who has won the genetics lottery, and yes, that’s you Brenton, you really should give yourself much more credit. Stop beating yourself up, and start seeing yourself in a brighter light. Only when you start being happier will others see you the same way. If you walk around with a cloud over your head, you’ll only be miserable and be attractive to no one…
there are always tough times, but look on the bright side, you’re young, you’re healthy, you’re drop-dead gorgeous. Many of us would love to live your life for a day… so cheer up! :)
This will pass - feel sad, feel horrible, feel whatever, just don’t criticize yourself for whatever you are feeling. You will turn around in no time and realize you don’t feel that way anymore.
I complained because i had no shoes until i met a man who had no feet.
Moral; There is always someone better off than you, be yourself its all we can be.
Have you ever thought of speaking with someone professional about how you feel? I don’t mean this in a negative way - like you are off your tree. Perhaps chatting with someone else may help. I know that some organisations have people that can assist with this.
Brenton, you’re entitled to your feelings; they arise from what ever you are going through at the moment and having to deal with. Curling up in a ball and crying…is not a negative thing. I’ve done it and got up feeling more positive afterwards. And…it is a pretty honest and brave thing to actually put it in a blog posting.
There is some guy out there just waiting for you to do the “double glance
What the hell does LOOKS have to do with depression??????
Jesus - “interesting to see beautiful people experiencing the same as us average joes” - how insulting on so many levels. Duglyduckling - how abhorrent is your mind set???
Brenton - get meds and counselling. You’re depressed and lost.
Is a bitch of a combination that will get worse over time no matter how you try to deny it.
Good thing is the solution is not difficult and will be improve youre daily malaise by about 1000%
Heya Brenton,
I actually saw you by chance on Friday night at the bath-house but was way too shy to go up and talk to you (or do anything else for that matter :-) ). But you have nothing at all to worry about, we all feel that way at certain times and for what it’s worth I think you’re a stunner.
People come and go and they may think otherwise, but really who cares? Just think of it this way, for every guy that may “reject” you, it just brings you closer to finding that one guy who will take you for all that you are. It’s all about keeping a positive outlook in the meantime - it will happen, so don’t you worry :-)
Brenton,
i went through times like that sometimes..and as i seek and reach out for companionship, someone i can cuddle up with, deep down, i know no one can ever satisfied my emptiness, i have to deal with it myself. Until i can feel full and complete, people will then be attracted to me.
It’s only your perception that you got so emotionally drained into. let go, and enjoy the moment, calm yourself down, put on opera music, what if there’s another perfect guy waiting for you, but because you’re so drawn into this emotional ride, you completely missed out..easy to say hey..
i hope you feel better, and perhaps next time, when you see someone that you like, go up to him and say hi. then, you may work out that he’s not the kinda guy you enjoy, or things may work out well.
‘there’s no failure because you didn’t make it,
you’re already a success because you try’
believe, and feel the feeling of having the kinda guy you want right beside already, and just enjoy the moment, there’s always love
you’re a beautiful soul!!
Here is one pole-dancing show i watched last night. It is not erotic but it is skilfully done:
http://dextermejia.blogspot.com/2008/06/o-ultimo-momento-peut-tre.html
The thing with crappy days is there are only 24 hours in them.
By the time you wake up the next morning, yesterday will be far behind you.
Hey B… That seems to be going around… If I were there, I’d wrap my big gay arms around you… rub your back, and whisper in your ear… Everything is going to be alright…
I would love to introduce you to this guy I know… He’s beautiful, amazing eyes and body… Has a way with words, funny as all get out… He also has this amazing inner strength… A little crazy, but then again who isn’t… I think you would love him… I also think you have alot of the same interests… and funny enough he lives in Australia… His name is Brenton… ;)
Love from Atlanta
Here’s an answer that works for many:
Happiness is not achieved by the conscious pursuit of happiness; it is generally the by-product of other activities.
- Aldous Huxley
I have found being too absorbed by things going on in my own life is what can be depressing.
So, go do something for someone else, write or call someone to brighten their day.
Just get out of yourself. Where that may lead could bring happy surprises.
dave from Dallas TX
Things will get better.
WE all go through these depressions.
Just the other day: On my birthday? and my best friend of 25 years? didn’t call.
Shit happens and we get over it and move on :)
Well, well well….this doesn’t sound much like you at all. Sorry for the troubles….they seem to all pile up at the same time, don’t they? I send you wishes for a good head about your shoulders, a tender heart open to pain and happiness, and a better tomorrow. You already know that I care for you…..
Have noticed that sad, “lost” look in your eyes in other pix. If it’s a way you feel often, please get some help. I went for 2 decades clinically depressed without medication or counseling. For the last 18 months, after I finally fixed the chemical imbalance in my brain and worked on some new ways of reacting to the world, my life has been so positively different.
My counselor says happy people are:
1. Authentic: Honest with themselves and others
2. Non-Judgmental: “Judgmental” is when your judgments make you unhappy (for example, comparing yourself negatively to others)
3. Present: Live fully in the moment, not regretting the past or fearing the future
4. Grateful: For the little as well as the big blessings in life
Very best wishes from Chicago. Take care, Brenton.
Well, the good news is, as Eckhart Tolle would say, “this too will pass” :-).
If its any consolation, though its probably not, I had a day like that yesterday too…Blame it on the moon! We are cursed to be so beautiful, people think they cant have us!
Wow queen- you just need so much attention don’t you?
Pole dancing class? Bloody hell, I stop blogging for a few months and it all takes off………… how’s that going? :)