For about the last month or 6 weeks or so, I’ve been going through one of those really flat phases. Just lacking direction, enthusiasm and hope really. Nothing drastically wrong, but just not feeling like I’m heading anywhere. I’ve noticed though, in the last week or so that the tide seems to be turning. Things are coming together. I don’t have a job yet but it’s not stressing me that much, I’m still getting enough work to get me by.
I’ve been working on a “dream job” project. I don’t have it, but I’m going after my dream job, or one of them and what I need to get done isn’t far from being done. I’ve got other ideas for photography and other projects that I want to do. People that just faded from my life have come back into it, another one who hurt me badly has been in touch saying they’d like to apologise and explain what happened if I’ll let them. I’m excited, for the first time in a while.
man, these times are some of the craziest in all of our lives. the weirdness of feelings, the lack of anything, the blah blah blahs. seasons of life are one hell of a challenge. remember that we have to go through them, not around them. consider it enough that i have them too, we all do. and that i care.
Yeah Brenton I can relate to this one. I’ve just been in a job for almost 2 years. They finally advertised it and I didn’t get it. It really deflates you big time. Oh well, I’ve always tried to look on the bright side. One door shuts, another one opens. I’m applying for another one and in the meantime I go back to the original job. Fingers crossed. I guess that it’s these times that actually “make you feel alive”. If we didn’t have the down times we would not appreciate the “up times”.